Have you ever had a moment where you thought you had your life all planned out and it just hasn't worked out?? For me that happened this summer, I had always wanted to be an engineer, if anyone knows me when I get into something I go in, and the thing that I most went in on was lego. I was obsessed, friends?? Who needs them, I can build my own. I'd just sit for hours on end building and building switching off from the outside world and making my own. This obsession slowly developed into me wanting to be an engineer when I realized that CEO of lego was a bit far fetched of a goal. Basically to cut it short I had made it 95% of the way to getting an apprenticeship with BAE only to not get accepted at the last stage of recruitment. I thought I had it all mapped out, my life set, only to be left questioning where God was in all of this
In Jeremiah 29:11 it says:
"for I know the plans I.have for you declares the lord, plans to prosper you and
not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"
This summer I was left feeling like I'd lost all direction and for the first time in my life I was left questioning is this faith something I actually believe in or is just me blindly following my parents way of life. I had so many questions. For the next few months I rarely came to church and would not engage even when I was there I'd mentally be in another place. I'd come to a cross roads where I needed to decide if I was all in or all out. After a few chats with my friends and family I decided that trying alpha was the best idea. Over the course of the next few weeks I started to find some of my questions answered but I still wasn't convinced. During the six my best mate Sam decided to ask if he could pray for me I didn't really want him to but I said yes to keep him happy, I expected nothing but what I found has redefined me as a person I was filled with the holy spirit found peace for the first time, I still have lots of questions but I now have courage and conviction in my faith. I now love telling my friends about church and have confidence that no matter what the situation God's got my back.
1 joshua 9
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged,
for the lord your God will be with you wherever you go"
Even though I didn’t get the internship with BAE, I know it’s not because God doesn’t care. He loves me, has a plan for my life and he will never leave me.